Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading So sick and tired of all the needless beating
About me Suvin :D I eat, shit & sleep. Thats life, isn't it? People viewed. Talk all you want Escapes Alif Cindy Connie Elaine Eunice Hwee Yi Jia Hao Jia Wen Jin Kai Kevin Lina Pei Li Qing Xiang Sir Samuel Shan Shan Sharon Shu Ying Stella Yao Joe Yuan Zhang Yu Miao Zi Feng Bitter & sweet memories August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 Hear me sing Coming soon :) Credits ©Glamouresque.	♥ Tuesday, December 22, 2009 Look what you've done Now, I know why. Its up to today till I see your true colours. Nothing but a jerk. Nothing but a bastard. Nothing but a good-for-nothing. I don't need you now. You see this, Yes, I don't need you. Yes, get lost. Hate you ttm. You know why. You know yourself best. I guess there isn't a need for me to explain anything. Basket. Andandand you. Please don't change guys like you are changing clothes. Am not directing this at anyone. Unless you are like guilty conscious? What's so special about today? Tangyuan day? Nobody tell me... How come everyone is eating tangyuan while I don't even have one!!! Its been ages since I ate tang yuan & I miss the taste of it. Ahhhhhhhhhhhh! As you all know, sadness do become hatred sometimes. & I bet mine turned out this way. Isn't this cool. You know why. Utterly disappointed. But well, what for? Since you can be so heartless, I am no exception! Time wait for no one & life goes on. :) ANG ZHEN XIANG. YOU SUCK, SERIOUSLY! SEE THIS NOT? ♥ Monday, December 21, 2009 Better off Holidays aren't any better. I rot my Monday away ): Sleep, sleeping, slept. Went Boon Lay market for a short while. & now I am here, surfing the net. I mean trying to search for relevant info for my projects. Damn it. I rather spend my holidays rotting than racking my brain for info. Okay, whatever. Friends? Strangers? Or enemies? Laughs. I guess it doesn't matter now. I am just but a piece of rubbish. Yet to vent out all my frustrations. Awww. SHAMELESS. REVENGE IS SWEET. ♥ Sunday, December 20, 2009 Just so you know Fuck off if you don't want to read. Its wordy. Today's the twentyth. Although it seems like any other day to everyone of you, its not for me. If nothing happens, if... Till now, I still can't accept the fact. I don't want to. I guess everyone portrays me as an idiot. Yes, I am. I am still happily checking my phone every now & then. I am still hoping to see you outside my lift once I stepped out of it. I am still waiting for you to start a converstation with me, even a simple "Hi" will do. I am still hoping to hear that we aren't over. I am still waiting for the day you come back to me. I yearn for your love. I'll do whatever it takes to get you back. But, I am not even given the chance to cherish you. Everything/Anything reminded me of you. Songs, things, dates, people, surroundings. I can't help, but I really envy couples. I feel like going up to them & tell them to cherish one another, before its too late. I need to keep myself occupied. I cannot afford to have anymore free time. I can't allow my mind to start thinking. Sometimes, I wonder to myself. Why should I treat him as my everything, when he treat me as nothing. Because I love him. He's happy. He's contended. I'm not. He's enjoying his life. I'm not. He forgotten me completely in only a month (today's the twentyth, but to be exact, its only a few days. I am just kind enough to round it up to a month). You don't need a reason to love someone. &, you'll still love him, despite the fact that he'd hurt you so much. A part of me is missing. Sad to mention, I am the worst girl, he ever met. The one he love the least. He took ji long yi xia to forget the girl (you don't have to know) before me. Not saying that he doesn't treat me well. He's the best guy I ever had, & I am like serious. The one I love the most. The one that made sucha great impact in my life. The one whom I can't get over with. But, I am just like a gust of wind to him. Blow! There I go. I've flew far away from him. Okay, I really don't know whatthefcuk I am talking about. Just let me rant. I want him back so badly. But, whats the fcuking use when he fcuking don't need me in his life anymore, don't you think so? He name me as a pestnow, if I were to tell him, I lovehim, I misshim? I'll bet he'll start scolding me in no time. I don't even know what to tell my grandma. All I could thought of was, orh, we've got school. Got exams, got tests, that he went overseas, that he's busy working. I don't know how much longer I can keep everything from her. & now, she's pestering my brother for an answer. Just wait, soon, I would no longer be the one you know, no longer. I tried to hate you, but I failed. Because I still love you. Now, I think I hated myself even more. Everything seems to be crashing down on me. I feel like I am suffocating. Some things are easier said than done. I tried forgetting you,  but I failed. Now, I don't want a life without him. Life's so meaningless. What do I live for now? When you say you love me, it may not be from the bottom of your heart. But I want you to know that, when I say I love you, I do, & i meant if from the bottom of my heart. There's this saying: "When you love someone, you want him to be happy". I want to see you happy, but I can't bear to see you leave with another girl. Yes, she's always there for you when you are down, I am not. Everything's my fault. I want to be a watertap no more. I am tired of life & I am going bonkers. )': I want to go to the beach tomorrow, anyone? ♥ Saturday, December 19, 2009 Your love is my regret Retarded enough not? Well, for you. Its never a wrong choice to leave me. HAHAHA. Wheeeeeeeee! Today marks the start of my holidays! Lets spell H-A-P-P-Y together! Finally got to break free from tutorials & lectures. But, my holidays seems rather boring. Like shit only. Suvin's holidays = Work + projects. Tell me boring not? Work): No choice, I need to work towards my goal!(FYI, not a diploma, but a set of braces.) Ugh, I guess its better than having to bear with those lecturers & tutors' chantings. I am getting contact lenses soonsoonsoon. So excited! Okay, just ignore me. December's definitely not a good month. I am so looking forward to 2010. A new year, a new start, yeah? Unhappiness+sadness, I am leaving you behind! Life's still the same. I am very happy. (not) I am letting go of everything soon. (not) I am as strong as a bull. (not) Thanks those who really cares, esp PEILI(Is this big enough?!), Eunice, Hui Rong, Sarah, Pamela, Yao Qi, Shu Ying, Hardiana, Zhen Xiang, Jin Yun, Joe, Elaine, Jing Xiang, Jia Wen, Syafiq & more.... But I'll take care of myself  :) I feel really weird to have people caring about me. HAHAHA. ♥ Thursday, December 17, 2009 No more I am very tired. Very sick & tired of everything. You are right. I weren't there when you needed someone the most. She's there. Always there. Never fail to be there. Last long. All the best in wooing her. I guess I am feeling so much happier now. Thanks people. Move on. Cos life have to go on. I rock. I like this I like this:it may take a week, months or years but if you see him as the one you can wait but in the meantime, you can still have fun the time is young the air is still fresh live life if fate allows it, both of you will meet again and he will realize that she is the one for him if he doesn't it's his loss for losing someone as wonderful as you are I am not suffering from depression, am I? ♥ Wednesday, December 16, 2009 Get me busy I screw up my Stats paper today y'know. & its not as if i didn't study for it. Grrs. Why am I always the unlucky one. & I just can't stop ranting. Bid goodbye to my GPA 3.5. See you next year. Getting Marketing results tomorrow. Excited, not. I don't want a C ): Second- Warning letter. Its no big deal. I just forgot to attend some of the classes what. I am so gonna get grilled by my parents, most probably. Shyt. Well, I guess its only a small matter. As long as I am not barred from exams. But, adults like to make things worst, don't they? I guess I am going to throw everything back at you? Suvin is in a dilemma. Everything's reminding me of you. Give up? Think so... I am living my life happily. Yes, trying to. Happiness is just a few steps away! Don't brood over the past. As the past has passed. Actions speaks louder than words, though. Its just a few days. Can't believe it. How come I am still holding on. Even he's not, now. I agree I am stupid now. Can't I be any smarter? _|_, for myself. FYI, I am talking to myself.I only know how to say. But deep inside, I am going crazy. ♥ Tuesday, December 15, 2009 Everything's fading. Ignore my mouth. Bought uniform for work today. Opportunity cost--> Don't know anything about special journal. I have not been attending POA lecture for two consecutive weeks already. I am dead. Met two bloody hell irritating cadbury guys in the train. Just can't stop following whatever we are doing. Irritating, although I know our actions are cute. But even so, that doesn't give them the rights to be so childish. Shit, I am going to bring an umbrella whenever I stepped out of my house now. Damn the acid rain. Gotta work tomorrow... I hate black(s). And so what if you are smart? So what if you are in a good course? So what if you are in a good school. So what if you are good-looking? That doesn't give you the rights to be so.....kaypoh. Get this right, you don't know me. Screw you. Ya, fuck, the word for you. Yes, you. Its you. ♥ Monday, December 14, 2009 How do I study? Choice F. for Excess. Aren't I smart. Why can't I be any smarter. Someone just bang my head hard onto the wall. Not in the mood to study for Stats. Someone please help me. I need my GPA 3.5( Just let me dream about it ) very badly. Life is just like multiple choices. You make a choice & for most of the time, you regret it. Who don't? But, you just gotta live with it. Nobody's going to care about you. You'r right. I made a choice. I regret it. But I just gotta live with it.. What a joke. I am not escaping from reality. I am unhappy. Very very unhappy. I hate everything about my life. But I still have to put a smile on my face, every day, every hour, every minute & second. Do you know how hard it is? Its hard to put on an act. I am really very tired. Till now, I still can't accept the fact. I live for myself. I don't need anyone. I'd rather erase all those memories in my mind. I don't want to keep them. I don't want them to be on my mind all the time. My fault. )': x infinity. You don't need me, I don't need you either yea! )':     )':      )':      )':       )':       )':       )':       )':       )': So how do I let go? I don't want to be half/three-quarter blind. I really have nobody to turn to. I am very sad. I am suffocating.& the best part is, you don't reply to my texts anymore. Worry nto, not going to interfere in your life anymore. ♥ Sunday, December 13, 2009 Exhausted One word, hectic. One more paper to go! Few more months before Semester two comes to an end. Thats fast. Right now, I am trying to get over & done with all my projects. Crush those who invented projects. My brain cells are depleting. I feel so tired over life. Its always about work, if not studies. Isn't life for all of us to enjoy? Just don't understand. But well, I am anticipating Christmas & New Year!!! So excited. Though there's no celebration. 2009 is coming to an end too. 2010 is coming. Omg, I feel so old. ♥ Friday, December 4, 2009 FOOD! Hello! I have no idea what to blog right now. Haix. I want to eat fish manhanttan's fish & chips again. I want to eat steamboat. I want to eat tomyam cup noodles. I want to eat Fish & Co's seafood platter for two. I want to eat Marks & Spencer's chocolates. I want to eat Pepper Lunch's chicken pepper rice. I want to eat Subway's cookies. I want to eat fried fish soup with rice.I want to eat donut factory's double chocolate donut. I want to dine in at Popeye's. I want to eat filet-o-fish meal. I want to eat Mr Bean's chocolate pancake. All so yummy! Are you drooling? Me love food, more than anything else :D ♥ Monday, November 30, 2009 No title Not going to blog about anything today. Blame my laziness. Bye. ♥ Sunday, November 29, 2009 Speechless Everything can change overnight. I am just so sick & tired of life now. I feel so alone. Whatever it is, thanks for these nine months, where you cared so much for me. You got angry, because of me. You got sad because of me. You got worried because of me. Those bickering sessions with you, those fun, joy & laughters. I'll never forget everything. Do takecare of yourself. & quit smoking, though I know I have no rights to interfere in your stuff now. Its your choice. I wish you all the best :') Goodbye & thanks. ♥ Thursday, November 26, 2009 Back to square one What the world really needs is more love and less paperwork - Pearl Bailey ♥ Wednesday, November 25, 2009 Whats with the world Tsk. Today, I realised something. I forgot how to do primary one Maths! Omg, this is so embarrassing. I was supposed to teach my cousin Maths, but I totally blanked out after reading the question & I stoned at the book for like, 5minutes? Why is Primary One Maths so difficult now...... Nuts. Forget it, my maths is like F9 standard anyway. & today's a special day because I tried yogurt for the first time in my 18years. One word for you, yogurt. AWFUL. I had a hard time finishing it up, because it tasted like food that has gone bad. YUCK HATE IT. & now, how I do I spell yougurt/yogurt? I forgot....................... ♥ Tuesday, November 24, 2009 Broke HELP! I am very broke now. I am not a spendthrift, am I? No, I am not. I am glad money can't buy happiness. If not, I'll end up being the most unhappy person in the world :) ♥ Monday, November 23, 2009 The end Super relieved that Microsoft Access ICA1 is over. I screwed up my individual work, so I know I am going to fail this, very badly. Can't believe I am so stupid. I studied, memorised, but I don't know how to apply my knowledge to the test! Forget it, its over! Rushed over to Amk Hub to catch 2012 at 3.30pm, but who knows the tickets are sold out so we bought tickets for the 5.25pm slot instead. Headed to MacDonald for desserts, crap & since we still have a lot of time before the movie, Yao Qi suggested to take pictures! Hahaha, I didn't know taking pictures can be so energy-wasting/stupid/retarded/funny! Yao Qi asked/forced/pestered me to take picture with her, so I pose this stupid action for her camera. Okay, I know its fugly, but what matters most, is the laughters! Then we decided to capture everyone of us using Yao Qi's handphone. And since her phone is lousy, we only managed to capture a photo, like this, after many attempts. Yao Qi's face kenna cut away by abit, but well, got my face can already!^^ Yao Qi then complained that her hand is tired, so she suggests we should all sit in a row, so its easier for us to take pictures. Woah, what a good suggestion! I kanna squeesze until !@#$%^&*()_+ lor! & this is what we get. I really have no idea why Sarah's face turn out this way! Sarah was unhappy because her face cannot be seen(picture above), so she asked Yao Qi to shift the camera to the left. Then now, 1/4 of Yao Qi's face gone. And, btw, I forgot to mention that Yao Qi & I should be doing the same pose, while Sarah & Eunice should be posing as a pig. Yao Qi then complained to Sarah, saying that she cannot hold her camera towards the left if not her face will be cut. Complain, complain, complain. But then, she never realised hor, she is happily covering 1/4 of my face with that big head of hers. For most of the pictures some more hor. Fyi, I have no idea why I did that action in this picture. I know its unglam, but I got really tired of doing the cork eye thing with the mouth so...maybe a change of pose. HAHAHA. I think Yao Qi love this picture very much. Cos she keep on repeating herself after looking at this picture. She says, eh hen cute lley hen cute lley! She's refering to herself. *vomit. How do I get rid of those fats on my face! HAHAHA. Anyway, I guess I am quite lucky. Cos my eyes is not cork after the end of the cam-whoring session. If not I am going to blame Yao Qi for it! ♥ Sunday, November 22, 2009 Temptations Awww, Microsoft Access is killing me, I swear! Why didn't I pay attention from the very first lesson! Shyt. Tell me last minute preparation works, pleaseeee. Oh, I guess I forgot to mention that I spent all my money away. Cos I went on a shopping spree yesterday. Am I pro or what? Arghhhhhhh! Can't believe it. Anyway, I have got a lot more to buy. There's too many things that caught my eyes. Lets wait for 7December all right! Thats my pay day! wink* & I shall pamper myself with food & clothes! Anyway, I love Marks & Spencer's chocolates, yum yum yum :D
LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST! A smile a day, keeps the doctor away :D